2020 Weight loss Journey - February Update

 Sculpting my body for long term. Black is always in!

 Driven in this lifestyle change. The matrix is real!

 A touch of pink makes it all pop! Black, White, Gray- it is all okay!

Tone and Complexion - Total Image Focus.

A Guide to The Homeless Experience

Charlotte, NC skyline

Seeing homelessness and experiencing homelessness are two different things.  It is ridiculous to work 70 and 80 hours a week trying to maintain housing that you work so much that you are not even able to appreciate it. As a result, more and more people are becoming transitional.

Things to know about sleeping on the street:

You will feel Restlessness.

1) Constant worry about safety affects sleep.

2) Constant change in weather alters body temperature and affects sleep.

3) Constant foul smells can affect sleep.

4) Sleeping sitting up (versus laying down) can affect sleep.

You will feel a challenge associated with Restroom Needs.

1) With or without a vehicle, finding a nearby public restroom in a hurry is a huge obstacle.

2) Food, liquids, fluctuations in body temperature can affect the body's urges for erratic restroom needs.
3) Disposable briefs become a good backup plan in case the  public restroom is too far.

Some Suggested Grooming Supplies for the Homeless

1) Cleansing wipes

2) Fresh clothes
3) Fitness Center membership for showers

4) Concentrated room sprays
5) Bladder Control Briefs (Disposable undergarments)

Be Mindful of your risk of Sexual Assault and/or Pregnancy
1) A homeless woman is probably at least 51% likely to be sexually assaulted or possibly abducted.

2) If the woman is still in childbearing age, then pregnancy is very likely.

3 ) Most advocacy agencies for homelessness ask if the female is pregnant in a condescending tone of voice which is a sign of ignorance. This ignorance is the basis of writing this article.

Extended Stay Hotels may be a solution for some people in transition.  One fee is all inclusive of utilities.

Some cooking layouts vary.

Coin operated laundry room.

Dishes and eating utensils are usually provided.

Cozy home-like feel.

Choose to sleep near 24/7 Locations for Parking and Public Restrooms (Between midnight and 6am - most businesses are closed. Restroom access is limited.)

Find areas where you have multiple businesses that are open 24/7 like

1) Drugstores
2) Fitness Centers
3) Laundromats
4) Hospitals
5) Superstores
6) Restaurants
7) Gas stations

Many people are feeling forced to live in a roommate situation because shelter has become expensive. One can only hope that everyone maintains their part of the bills.

May God Bless you.

Preparing for my Rideshare Rant Tour

 As Comedienne B'exponential, I am focused on stage presence.

 I am losing inches to prepare for my Rideshare Rant tour. Weekly, I publish videos on Instagram as #ridesharerant comedy.

My After pictures are on the left. My Before pictures are on the right.

Both pictures were taken in 2019. Same sweater, but less of me in the sweater. (10/29/2019 picture update)

My Slogan: Be Calm. Be Emotional. Be Enough. Be Exponential.

What healing meant for me

The woman on the right is the protector of the young lady on the left. Yes, both pictures are of myself (younger versus matured)

In 1991, because my rape and kidnap case did not go to trial, the toxic relationship that I found myself in got suppressed in a "confused" state.  My body continued to respond to the trauma that I endured in 1990 on three separate incidents to this day. My assailant probably never really had any thoughts about the compounding damage that he inflicted. Every individual responds differently to traumatic circumstances. Society views were still conservative in 1991.

Fast forward to 2019, thank God they got rid of the rape support groups. Support was the last thing that support groups felt like. Yes to modern day counseling. I was in disbelief that counseling would help me, but it did. My counselor helped me to dissect all my confusion by walking through all three sexual assaults by my assailant. I filed the report in 1990 for second degree rape which was the third assault. I filed a second report in 2019 for the first sexual assault. It became very important to fight for justice for myself and let my story be known in the interest of public safety.  I was cautioned numerous times that my assailant may threaten my life. These messages clearly let me know that my assailant should serve prison time for the damage that he caused me.

My assailant compromised my relationship with my parents. My assailant compromised my opportunity to start my own family. I also have reason to believe that my assailant interfered with my April 2019 attempt to get my extended family released from false imprisonment.

I am one of the "skeletons" that creeped out of my assailant's closet. You can expunge records, but it is another story to expunge the victims.

He can thank the corruption in Georgia for awakening my quest for justice. I can thank the corruption in Georgia for helping me to heal by dealing with my past.

#Round2mark3 was not fought in a courtroom. It was fought in public so that the record can not be expunged this time.

I claim the victory because my truth is my identity, and I don't have to be silent anymore.

As for his family, they know him best. Even serial killers have some boundaries from what I've researched. My assailant may be a perfect father and an awesome spouse, but he was a traumatic experience for me.

I still don't trust my safety, but I don't regret my journey. I trust in God's Master Plan. Peace.

Comedy Comeback: Comedienne B'exponential

I've lived a little now, and I have plenty to say.  I have not received any corporate interviews. I will be paid what I am worth. So comedy is now my full time focus!  My slogan is Be Calm, Be Emotional, Be Enough, Be exponential!

Every Monday will be my Rideshare Rant on IGTV or Instagram depending on the length of my rant.

9/25/2019 Update: Twitter wants me to delete the tweet below because they say it promotes suicide. Someone is intimidated by my power.  I will not give up my freedom of speech.

Applebaum Advocacy Work

Although, I'm not wearing my cosmetic makeup, I was happy and radiant to see that the attorney that I took to small claims court is disbarred. Society can rest easier that there is one less crooked attorney out there.

On that note,  I have picked up more prisoner advocacy requests. For $20 to my cash app $benitablocker I can review post- conviction cases. Because I am not an attorney, I can not advise, but I can review circumstances surrounding post-conviction.

Please include inmate name, prison ID number attached to cashApp transaction to avoid any mix-ups.

Best wishes.

Justice System: The name is the game changer.

Photo credit: Facebook

So I released my detailed account of my rape and kidnapping in November 2018. Unfortunately, what I learned is that Rape happens quite often.  There is a "rape culture' that exists. A "groping culture" also exists. I was quite saddened to hear this. Violent acts against women affect every woman differently. For me, my toxic relationship with Mark Lee Murray III became an ultimate tragedy that redirected my entire life's journey.

I was forced to release my assailant's name in December 2018.  The world stopped in silence, and it cleared a path for me to walk through. I have no regrets. It was necessary. Clearly, a prominent name is a gamechanger.

In June 2019, I asked Buncombe County District Attorney Todd Williams to file kidnapping charges against my assailant. Of course, my name is not prominent enough to get any prompt attention, but this week, progress was made.

My 1990 case is still visible in the system. When asked why didn't I file kidnapping charges in 1990? My response was that my story has not changed. I was pinned up in Mark's car for an hour against my will in a secluded area. It sounds like kidnapping to me. No further questions were asked.

I have secured advocacy in Asheville, NC.

The hashtag for my pending victory over my assailant is #round2mark3

My life has been hell with the post traumatic stress spilling into every aspect of my relationships including family.  I'm ready for due process. It is decades overdue, and God's timing.

Related links:

https://applebaumparadigm.blogspot.com/2018/11/my-1990-rape-survivor-story.html

https://applebaumparadigm.blogspot.com/2018/11/signs-of-1990-abusive-relationship.html

https://applebaumparadigm.blogspot.com/2018/12/identification-of-my-rapist-mark-lee.html